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Nature of Magic

IT IS FINALLY OUT! (Get it here. Unless you haven’t read the first two. In which case, start here.)

Okay, now that’s out of the way…

Preptember…?

In October, I will be traveling to the location where my next book takes place, and I’m going to do my best to get 50k words that month, and half of those while I’m abroad. Again, an ambitious goal that I’m unlikely to meet, but even if I fail to reach 50k, I’ll still get lots of work done, touch wood, and visit a lovely part of the world. I do appreciate it when people take me on vacations, I get to go places I wouldn’t be able to afford on my own.

But since October is going to be my NaNoWriMo, September is my Preptober… Preptember? Plantember? Anyway, the month is almost over and I’ve hardly started planning. I’ve been trying to get NoM done. But now it is, so I can happily shift to my next project.

(A hint as to the location for the next book: I have been studying Portuguese in preparation.)

Thoughts on “Autumn vibes” 

I love the cosy autumn aesthetic. Truly. I want it to be my life. I could watch videos on loop of women with perfectly manicured hands slowly making cup of tea or coffee and lighting a candle next to a pillow for their morning routine.

I want that.

But I’m not that.  I need to hit the ground running first thing and try to get as much done as I can until I run out of momentum. If I have a beautiful slow morning, that’s it for the day. I’m so at peace and relaxed, I just ride that vibe. Today is a great example. I woke up, made tea, and went outside to appreciate the cooler morning and sat and read a book that I’ll be discussing in a book club tomorrow. It was glorious.

But I didn’t do anything for the rest of the day, despite having plenty on the to-do list.

It was a lovely morning. I didn’t achieve the beautiful instagram aesthetic, though. I’m not effortlessly beautiful. Not even with tons of secret effort to look effortlessly beautiful. Nothing can alter that. (That is not a cry for compliments. I know what I look like and I like that my face is a bit villainous.) 

I want a peaceful, beautiful clean home and workspace, minimalist and appealing and all hygge-y.

But that’s not who I am. I am a chaos person. Things do not stay tidy (if they were ever tidy to begin with.) So I will have to satisfied with cosy chaos and being effortlessly average.

Imposter Syndrome

I’m glad I can finally share this blog post. I started it last week, but I didn’t want to post anything until I actually published Nature of Magic. It is more expensive than the other two, but it’s also more than twice as long as the first. Ugh. It makes no sense. I feel like a fraud trying to trick people into spending money on something I’ve written, but, isn’t that the goal? To be a semi-self-supporting author? To make a living by writing? And how am I supposed to do that if I do not charge for my work?

I want to get paid for it. I just don’t want to charge for it. It makes it seem like I think I’m worthy, when I don’t think I am. The audacity, to make people pay money to read my work. $5? Who do I think I am? (I spent almost $20 on a book today, but it was Ray effing Bradbury. And I am not even close to Ray effing Bradbury.)

Moving on…

I will try to keep up with the blog while I’m abroad. Posts might be shorter. Or longer, who knows! I already write more when I’m away.

Nope, moving back to autumn vibes. Still not over it.

How are you celebrating the coming of autumn? Or, if you’re in the southern hemisphere, the coming of spring? Both the start of spring and autumn seem like much better places to start anew than January first. So arbitrary. It should definitely be at the change of seasons, and that change should be splendid and awe-inspiring. We should do autumn and spring resolutions. 

Yes. Boom. Doing it. 

My autumn resolution, or mantra, I suppose, is to always be writing. Fiction, blog, journal, letters, nonsense. I want to entertain myself more with my writing. I want to always be running out of ink, for my fingertips to be forever stained. (That’s an exaggeration, of course, but I want to think of writing in more than just in terms of work, but as solace, comfort, entertainment too.)

If I were to set a measurable goal, it would be to publish this next story by the end of the season. 

What about you? Any autumnal (or vernal) resolutions or mantras? What do you want to remind yourself going forward this season?

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NoM, EoM, MoA, and the pluperfect tense

Having read the first draft, my mother remarked that I’d overused the ‘had + past participle’ construction. 

I reminded her that she had only herself to blame by sending me to a school that required Latin. The pluperfect should be used if one event happened further in the past than a more recent one.  Straightforward. And as the narrative is already in the simple past, there will be many uses of the pluperfect tense. Just a fact. 

I know that I could use the simple past for both, but the pluperfect (pluscuamperfecto, le plusqueparfait, plusquamperfekt) is used freely in so many languages that I’ve studied that I don’t actively think about it. But this might be a time where studying so many other languages has made me sound less like a native English speaker. And I don’t want my book to sound stilted (or more stilted than it probably already does.) I will go back and change some of them to simple past, if it sounds more natural, colloquial. English is not Latin. It’s not even a Romance language. The rules are not so set in stone.

 She (herself a student of Greek, which also employs the pluperfect, or ὑπερσυντέλικος, which, like all other words for pluperfect, means ‘more than completed’) agreed to look again, but now I’m self-conscious about it. Self-conscious enough to begin my blogpost with grammar—never a good sign. 

The rewrites are nearly done (apart from the reread to specifically look for the pluperfect), and ready to pass back like a hot potato to the copyeditor. Before it is published, or at least soon after, I was thinking of another chapter for EOM, which is more than half done. But so few people are still reading, it hardly seems worth it to continue, the only reason to keep working on it would be if those readers actually bought by other stuff. A few have, but a very few. Not sure it makes all the time and effort writing EOM would require worth it, financially, emotionally, creatively.

I have so many other projects I want to be working on once I finish the Nature of Magic. The travel adventure series, my dark academia duology, a Persuasion retelling (with swords) and numerous little magical or romcom novellas. 

I met with a brand specialist yesterday. I won an hour of her time by making a fool of myself on stage. A bargain! I make a fool of myself for free all the time. So I have some steps to follow to get more satisfaction out of my writing, and more money. Sigh.

Both are important.

In a few hours, I am going to refill the well, as they say, by going to the Museum of Art. I will come back here later to report. 

~

It’s now Saturday. These were some of my favourite exhibits.

This is a ceiling. I just lay on the floor and gazed for a while.

Take care, everyone.

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I shouldn’t have gotten too excited

I was, perhaps, premature in gifting myself this LamyAL-Star in Tourmaline to celebrate my finishing Nature of Magic.

I sent the draft to my editor, promptly got sick and collapsed for a few days. (I am waiting for at-home covid test results as I write this post.)

Then this morning, I received both my lovely lovely pen and an email from said editor entitled “DON’T HATE ME”.

I haven’t read her comments yet, but I think it’s fair to say that I am not as close to publication as I’d hoped. 

Still aiming for a September publish date, even if there are still many rewrites in my future.

But let’s talk about something else, like… my favourite time of year.

BACK TO SCHOOL SHOPPING!

(You thought I was going to say autumn. And yes, I do love autumn, but it has the unfair advantage of being associated with back-to-school-ness.)

It should be a holiday, in my opinion, celebrating learning, presents (or school supplies if you like—same thing) and anticipation of new beginnings! I’m not in school anymore, but I still love shopping for school supplies. I’ve already bought my planner for 2023 (I’ve boarded the hobonichi techo train, and got myself the weeks version) a set of midliners, and, of course, the new Lamy and a pretty bottle of ink in amazonite, which I managed to dunk my thumb in the moment I opened it and now under my nail is a lovely shade of green.

In other news, I ordered a bike online a few months ago and it FINALLY CAME! I’ve been riding it everywhere, even though my city is not the most accommodating for cyclists. Still, I love it. I rode every day to where I would write, got my work done, rode back, and boom, work and exercise done before noon. If I accomplish nothing else with my day, still pleased. (I’ve even ridden it throughout this rainy week we’ve been fortunate enough to have.)

And speaking of rain, it has been lovely reading weather.

And just what am I reading? 

BABEL!

So so so so so so good. I have been waiting for this book to come out for MONTHS and yes, I did go to Barnes and Noble the morning it came out. I’m really enjoying it. Taking my time to savor it, because I know I’ll only get to read this for the first time once.
All the the vibes. Seriously, it puts my own dark academia resistance story to shame and I LOVE IT.

(I took that photo in my car after just having left the bookstore, considering maybe I should just read a chapter or two in the truck before I went home.)

Anyway, one last plug to please buy or read on Kindle Unlimited my Relearning Magic series. I’m told that I should not make any post without plugging my stuff. 

Sounds tedious, but I’ll try it this time, just to see. 

That’s all for today.

Oh, wait. An update! Both my partner and I tested negative for Covid! We’re just… sick with something else that is also miserable. Hurrah!

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Hodgepodge

This post will be a an assortment of what’s been on my mind lately.

This.

  https://www.politico.com/news/2022/05/02/supreme-court-abortion-draft-opinion-00029473

And this.

https://www.nytimes.com/2022/04/28/us/oklahoma-abortion-legislature.html

Currently reading these:

(Friend me on Goodreads so we can book-stalk each other.) https://www.goodreads.com/author/show/15019355.Kathryn_Amonett

My partner and I are talking about selling his car (though it’s 20 years old, so not sure how much we’ll get for it) and getting an e-vehicle.  I already have an e-motorcycle, but it’s not always safely ridable in Oklahoma wind and weather. But I’m not prepared to empty my savings, such as it is. I’m trying to think of ways I can live even greener. I am going to start a vegetable garden, but alas, I am not a greed thumb. 28th time’s the charm? I love love love the idea of eat fruit and veg fresh from my own garden, but the things I grow are not edible, let alone appetizing.  But I had a really blue few weeks and plants make me feel better, so giving gardening another go! I just let my own yard grow wild, but I’ll cultivate in a raised bed (which is a first. Maybe this is the key to success!)

Unsurprisingly, having two e-books on amazon does not make for a full time income. Can’t even buy groceries with it. So I’ve been giving plasma for money. Apart from the disastrous first attempt when I passed out, it’s been going well! It’s not the most glamorous life-style, but hey, it helps. It pays for groceries and books, at least! (Life’s two necessities.)

I have a writer’s conference this weekend, so I have an opportunity to make local writer friends and network some! I’m half excited, half worried that I will be the only one wearing a mask.

Anyway, if you haven’t already, you can get books from my series here.

And my Creativity Planner here.

Please give them a read and a review!

Until next time, keep reading and keep trying to make the world a bit better.

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On reading

Currently Reading: The Cartographers

The Old Woman with the Knife

So I finally caved and joined Book of the Month. So much of my reading is digital—I’ve missed physical books. And I have friends who do it. 

I think I’m a bit of a book club addict? I can’t seem to talk about books enough with people. I’m in four book clubs (two with humans I know, one digital, and one new group at a local bookstore.) But it still doesn’t seem like enough? I just want a buddy who will read every book with me so I always have someone to discuss it with. The problem is, I’m a slow reader. Any buddy would finish long before me. Ah well. 

The real trouble is the same all readers face: too many books, too little time. 

After publishing Familiar Magic, I took a small vacation to luxuriate in some extra reading time this week and it’s been so wonderful but like any holiday, returning to reality is a bit of a bummer. Not getting to read all day every day? Boooooooo!

While I’ve always been a big proponent of e-readers–being able to take an entire library with you anywhere in the world, being able to access any book at any time you want–I will allow, there there is something inherently enjoyable in reading a physical copy. Especially a hardback. It just seem like a more indulgent experience? As if the book itself is telling you to take your time. You don’t have to listen at double speed to finish this audiobook before the library loan period expires. Nope. This is yours, here for whenever you want to come to it.

I will always appreciate my kindle and ebooks. Of course. (I write ebooks, after all.) But sometimes, reading a paper book is just that extra something that you can do to treat yourself. (The only drawback being smudges or whatever I’m snacking on in the pages.) It’s classic for a reason. I think there is an entire section of instagram just of books and reading corners with hot drinks. Spring is fast catching up to summer, and cosy corner reads in blankets will turn to finding a nice spot outside under a tree or a sunny park bench. That is how I intend to read Breaking Bread with the Dead… a book club pick for April. 

What is everyone reading?

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Familiar Magic

Familiar Magic, the second in the Relearning Magic series is (finally) out! Hurrah!

Of course it is now April, which means it is Camp NaNo again, and yes, I’m working on the next in the series. My hope is to have the third and final one out by May’s end. Finger’s crossed.

Where Power Lies, the full length novel I’ve been working on for over two years should be out in the summer. (On for over. Three prepositions in a row!) If I had any business sense I would already be promoting it. There is a whole process for an indie author’s book launch; you should be doing blog or podcast interviews, there should be a cover reveal, a pre-order date, a big hoopla.

I’m terrible at hoopla. I’m still trying to get my head around the finishing the work and the posting the work. Advertising and release schedules are advanced level.

So for now, here is my new book. Please leave reviews, and recommend it to friends (you think will enjoy it.) It helps others see it. 

I’m still sort of in denial that this is what I do now. I don’t think I’ve ever been happier. Can’t wait to write out the novels that have been in my head and heart for so long once this little trilogy is done.

(Along with the writing, I’m finally getting proper medical treatment for my heart condition and it has made my life so much better. I don’t know why I went so long not taking care of myself!)

Anyone else hold off on doing something for so long? What made you finally do it? Or what’s still holding you back?

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Back and Planning!

I arrived home from Spain and almost immediately had major surgery (planned and desired, nothing scary). Now I’m at a point in recovery where I can start getting back to my normal routine, such as it is. 

But I can continue NaNoWriMo in earnest, especially now that I have my planner! I created this  organiser because, frankly, I did not have the patience keep creating my own bullet journal pages every single day; it took up to much time that I could have been spending on writing. So I created this as a bullet journal for the daily artist (or for the days when you’re able to do your work.) It is a place to give your mind direction when you sit down to do your art, track your progress (in words, scenes, stanzas, frames, photos, sketches, or just time spent creatively) and keep a record of what you’ve accomplished.

My designer friend did the cover and the layout, and I must say, I’m quite pleased. She got it exactly the way I asked. I’m quite lucky to have artistic friends and family, because I have absolutely zero talent when it comes to visual arts.

Okay, this update is both untimely and too brief, but I really want to get writing!!!

Later!

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New Novella and EOM chapter… coming soon.

I did a thing.

And it is not great. I don’t feel good about it. But that was the whole point. And I’m proud of myself for doing a not great thing.

I published an ebook. The first thing I’ve ever put out into the world that people will have to pay for. 

I’d say it is pretty typical as far as first attempts go, in that it’s mostly rubbish.

As my brother always says, the first step to getting good at something, is being crap at something.

So yay! I’ve taken the first step in self-publishing!

(For those who missed the post from a few weeks ago: I decided to write a novella (a trilogy of novellas, actually) just for my EOM readers. Original fiction that will hopefully be enough like EOM to get and keep their interest, but different—quite different— in that they will be shorter and sweeter. A modern fantasy novella (series) with a guaranteed happy ending. With any luck, this can be a stepping stone from my fan fiction to my original fiction? An experiment to see if this is something I can actually do.)

And as far as experiments go, it wasn’t a total failure. I wanted to see if I could write a novella in 10 days. And I found that I could! It just took another 18 days to get my act together and get it up on Amazon. There is definitely room for improvement–of course in writing–but also in formatting and navigating rigmarole involved in e-publishing. I kept dragging my feet on learning how to put it up. In the end, I put in the minimal effort required because the more frustrated I became, the more I wanted to just forget the whole thing and not bother with it at all. Terrible, I know. So, we’re going with the logic that a bad book is better than no book? That’s probably not true. But, it’s what I need to tell myself in order for me to actually start making a career of writing.

I write this Thursday evening. When you read this, the ebook will be available, and I will be off in the woods, putting a roof on my tiny cabin, far away from the internet or any kind of cell service, so I cannot check the stats and be immediately disappointed that no one has seen it or bought it yet.  

Rather than look at amazon obsessively when I get home from building, I will make some tea, read some poetry, and refuse to open my computer until the weekend when I publish another EOM chapter. Wish me luck in not looking at my KDP account for at least three weeks. (Well that failed. It is not even three pm on the same day and I am on my computer, posting EOM and checking stats and doing other things. Sigh… so weak.)

That being said, if you do read and like it, please review. That would help me out bunches. You can get it here.

(But look at his lovely cover my brother did. Quite possibly the part of the book with which I am most pleased.)

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Writing in NOLA

July 22, 2021

Greetings, from New Orleans!

After half an hour of ambling down the Mississippi River, past the Audubon Aquarium and the famous Natchez steamboat, I wandered into the French Quarter and finally found a suitable café for writing on Decatur street. Unlike Café du Monde and Beignet Café (also on Decatur street), this one has indoor seating, air-conditioning, and is not full of tourists. I’m the only customer here, matter o fact. So I’ve finally found a place to stop and write (and stop sweating.)

There are plenty of windows here. In fact, I think they are actually sealed up old doors, as if once this cafe, like many of the others, sat open to the street. But despite the abundance of windows, there is no view to speak of. The glass, framed in a dark wood, is entirely covered in condensation– a result of the battle between the 100-degree heat without and the 60-degree air conditioning within.

I just noticed, the chairs have holes in the backs in the shape of a steaming teacup in its saucer. I want one. The booths of maroon leather match the chair seats.

I say booths, there are only the two; it is not a large café, might seat a dozen people. Fortunately, for the moment, I have the place to myself.

I am also sipping my first cup of caffeine in 22 days. (A café au lait for the record, which is not only the traditional way to prepare coffee in New Orleans but also my preference anywhere I go. Of course, they got it right. They never do at home, alas.) I’m not cheating on my pact with S; I was given dispensation. He agrees the circumstances are extenuating. We both agree that 23 days without caffeine is as good as 30 but not as good as 0. We were mad to attempt it to begin with. (I needn’t mention that July has not been my most productive month, as I (along with many ADHDers, self-medicate with caffeine.)

But back to the café. I was sat in one of the two leather armchairs, but the direct blasts of cold ar were too much for me. For the first two minutes I sat there, it was nice to commune with the little succulents in a bowl on the side table. But longer than that, the sweat started to turn to ice on my skin. 

I can still appreciate the artistic industrial-style hanging lamp fixtures and the exposed wooden beams from my seat at a table.

In any case, it’s time I stopped describing the café I’m going to write in and actually get to writing.

EOM or WPL?

(Later: EOM, as it turned out, even though my usual day for it is Friday.)

July 23, 2021

Finally made it to Baldwin & Co. This was the one real place on my list of places to visit, especially while I was here, apart from Café du Monde, for my sister’s sake. (I did manage a visit later with A after she got in. We shared beignets, and yes, got powdered sugar everywhere. The music playing was lovely. Everyone, please tip buskers. Being an artist is difficult, be it musician or writer, painter or potter. But to spend hours working, essentially for free, and only making what people feel like giving. Tragically, this is often nothing), and in this heat? Please feed the artists if you enjoy their art!)

Wow, that was quite the digression. 

Back to Baldwin & Co. Here I am! Definitely worth the hour’s walk and the three blisters I collected getting here (a first for these shoes. Alas. I may have worn them out at last.)

I’ve bought a splendid volume of poetry. Read half of it right here at the table before writing this. Vulnerable AF by Tarriona (Tank) Ball, local slam poet, author, and musician. Please do give her debut collection a read. 

This café-cum-bookshop itself, though having a limited selection of books, is spectacular. A larger than life portrait of James Baldwin is painted on book spines, and a mural of Langston Hughes next to his poem I, Too takes up a whole wall.

And they have a podcast studio in the back that you can rent. The walls are glass, and you can see people speaking into microphones. I wonder what they are saying.

The floor is part light wood that merges halfway across the room with black hexagonal tiles that climb up the coffee bar as well. The walls are brick and light wood, the same as the floor, pillars and exposed ceiling beam. 

Baldwin & Co. is so well designed. I am impressed. Moved even.

For I think my favourite thing about this place is that all the books they stock face outward on the shelves, displaying each and every cover. Such a respectful way to display books–giving every work its due, not choosing which precious few covers get to be seen while the rest anonymously cram together spine to anonymous spine. You can tell that the owners of this place are proud of their writers. 

This place is an homage, and one can feel it the moment you walk in.

The whole of this city feels much the same.

(I’m not great at taking photos when I’m out and about. But here are a couple that I managed.)

Armstrong
A live oak with resurrection ferns growing on them. The ferns can often look brown and dead, but after a rain they ‘come back to life’ as you can see here.
Not only atmospheric, these gas lanterns are iconic, and a distinctive feature of the city.

Until next time…

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Balkan Beginnings

June, 2015
Albania

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I wrote a very silly poem (the only kind of which I am capable) about my first impressions of the country’s capitol: combining two of my favourite things: travel and neologistic collective nouns.

Tirana:

In a confusion of collective nouns

 

 

The Marrakech of Eastern Europe

with its clattering of cafés

on every street

patronised, each and every, by

idles of old men

collusions of couples and

intrigues of lady friends

despite it being a working day.

An entropy of motorists

in Skanderbeg Place

play chicken with

a boldness of pedestrians

(huddles or muddles in wintertime)

and on Hoxha Thasim alone is

a bobbing of fruit stands

a swish of shops: mostly second-hand

and surprisingly, to the poetess at any rate

an onomatopoeia of pet shops.

Poor pups pant in their cages

As people sweat out their time

pleasantly ignoring the

haunting of pill box bunkers,

(steel casings with a urine-reek)

sitting in cafés with names like

Dublin

Oslo

New York

Havana

collectively pretending

they are anywhere

but Tirana

Obviously it did not include my trip up to the mountain in a cable car, my appreciation for Albania writer Ismail Kadare and his talented translator, (both seen here)
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nor my trip to the old town of Kruje, its castle, craft merchants and that jerk who followed me around, pretending to be a tour guide half the time and asking to see my breast the rest, who, after I couldn’t take the harassment (he called them compliments) I turned around to go back to the modern town, cutting my trip short. I won’t lie, it mostly ruined my day. I went to a café and tried to write, but wasn’t managing much so I decided to write my frustrations and call it a blog. Which brings me to poor traveller guilt. The only benefit tourists bring is money. A poor tourist (me) who buys no souvenirs from craftspeople who obviously need to make a living is worse than useless. Do we, as tourists, invaders and consumers of cultures, have an obligation to spend money on these things? Is it my duty as a tourist? I feel yes, but my pocketbook says no.

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“Thanks, I’m privileged enough to travel here but not enough to purchase any of your lovely things, sorry.”

When they say tourism helps local economies, they don’t mean my kind of shoestring tourism- making a 50 cent pack of soup last 2 days. I don’t think my splurging once a day on 100 leke tea really helps the economy.

Note: the barman, speaking in German (our only shared tongue) just said I look like a writer. Thank you, barman for improving my day, even though anyone scribbling away with notebook and pen looks like a writer, but all the same, you’ve given me a positive note to end this entry.